too far to grasp right now

i'm confused as to whether my book is lying on the shelf or whether it's been read at times when i don't notice. i'd like to know whether the person reading it (if there is in the first place) understands this book like i do.

confusing.

i'm a bit scared of what lies ahead. there are so many uncertainties and unpredictabilities (?) to life and it's weird that in 3 years time all of us could be in really different places, like really diffferent places from where we are now. not just geographical places, but like a state of mind and heart. and another scary thing is that you sorta get the choice to decide where you want to end up?

so much responsibility to do the right thing. to pursue what's in your heart but not end up hurting or destroying the people around you!

jungle trekking

it's like a trek through a tropical rainforest now. the canopy overhead is too thick for me to see through and the undergrowth is sparse. i'm travelling without a map, only with a faint memory of what the starting point looked like - nice, luscious, evergreen. but now the strong humidity is making me feel uncomfortable and i'm sweaty and sticky all over and super duper pek chek. darkness is setting in before daybreak occurs and the smell of moss is a bit unbearable. the feelings in this jungle now are foreign.

occasionally i see flowers but i dont know where these flowers are from, and the moments are rare and fleeting. but the colours are beautiful, and when used in combination i get lost in the moment, only to remind myself that these flowers either don't belong to me, or picking them will just mess up the forest floor and my hands get sticky from them.

feel like jumping ship. or in this case, jumping forest. but i dont know.. it's not common to do so i guess.

Getting too High!

Oh my goodness the past 4 weeks have been sooooooo crazy and I gotta brace myself for another 4 weeks. I think everyone else hasn't been having a good time either. It was rather empty in the LT this morning at 10am haha and so many people were late! For once in a long time, I was early. But only cos I cabbed to school :D Can't keep cabbing to school though. Burning a hole in my small pocket hehe!

I can't wait for the F21 stuff to arrive! I've bought so many things recently.. I think it's stress relief :D Speaking of stress relief, Michelle and I were practically laughing throughout the entire day. Like seriously, from 10am to 4pm. Every 5 minutes or something like that LOL. Talk talk talk, then laugh laugh laugh, then talk talk talk, the laugh laugh laugh. Hahahah and I tend to get high whenever I'm like that.. Sometime during Pharm Prac WLL said something and some guy laughed then hahahah it was a really funny laughter so I laughed, but no one else was laughing at that point in time. So I quickly ducked my head. And omgosh, Cassie said everyone in the centre of the LT turned around to see who it was.. I don't know if they know who it was man haha.

Embarrassing. Yet really funny. Hahahah!